sad day

My mother did pass away this afternoon. I was there with her and it was very peaceful. I really thought my mother would be around for many years. Even though she was 88. Up until last week she was still caring for herself in the nursing home. And still very independent. But I think this is exactly the way she would have it be. Never bedridden and relying on others for her care.
Her wake will be Sun. and funeral Mon. morning. I'm waiting for my Utah son to get here.
Tomorrow I am going with Gabby and mu granddaughters to NYC to see Hairspray. We have planned this trip for awhile. And all agree it will help lift ours spirits.

long day

Sat. was a really long day. I got to the hospital very early. My mother is on the hospice floor. And at Bpt hospital it is a great unit. Right next to my mother's bed is a little sitting room. With a couch, TV, chairs, pillows and a small table. But by nite time I was wiped out.
She got a blessing from 2 brothers from church and 2 sister missionaries came as well. Then my 2 kids came, son-in-law and 1 granddaughter. We all went out to eat. And it was just great. I just got so tired
My mother looks like she is just sleeping and is very peaceful. So we will see what Monday will bring.

baptism

Yes< I was rebaptized when the toilet exploded all over me yesterday morning. I had to change all my clothes and there was water everywhere. I shut off the valve and then had to leave for the hospital.. But my handyman son-in-law came over and fixed it last nite and also installed a new faucet in the bathroom sink. Which I needed badly.
Things are still bad for my mother. When you enter her room you now have to put on a gown and gloves. Because she has and unidentified infection. And she is still not responsive. She will have an MRI and Ultra sound of her abdomen today. Just to see what else is going on.
I am enjoying all the other blogs. I still am amazed by the technology we have today.

5am

Well now it's 5am. I've been awake since 3am. But last night I feel asleep in front of the computer while playing scrabble at 10:30pm. I was so tired I said "oh just go to bed". Went to go to the bathroom and water all around the toilet. So I just shut off the valve and thought I'll deal with this tomorrow.
My mother is still unresponsive. She does have a clot in her brain and urinary tract infection. I'll be going up to ICU shortly.

bad day

Sunday was a very bad day. My mother is now in ICU at Bpt Hosp. She is unresponsive and they are not sure if she had a stroke. Gabby stayed with me all day and that did make the day more bearable. I am on my way there now.
Everyone with you blogs keep it up. Seeing all your kids is a great way to cheer up.

new furniture

Hurray it's here. My new furniture. And I just love it. Especially the chair. It is big and over stuffed and I can see myself reading alot of good books in it. And that is why I picked that chair. I am waiting to go to the nursing home. As my mother is being discharged from Bpt Hosp. today. But she seems to be in a lot of pain and I don't know what to do next for her. But her heart, the dr's said, is veeeery stong. And she has no cancer of any kind.
I am trying to find time to read a new book, Bel Canto. I just can't keep my mind on it. I just keep thinking of things that need to done for my mother.
I think I may go to Utah for my son's 40th birthday. That's right. How can my son be 40 when I am still only 28. So have fun with your kids. Don't worry about how clean the house is. Because someday you will be going to their 40th birthday. And you will wish they were little again. Like I do.
You become a much better parent after they grow up and you can see all your mistakes. Hind sight is 20/20

what a week!!

My mother has been in the hospital all week. I think she will be ok. She should come home tomorrow. Had diner at Gabby's with Mike and the girls and Jessie. Steaks on the grill. My favorite!! I alos paid off my new furniture and it should be here on Thurs. The painter should be here next week or so.

dancing with the stars

What a great night. Gabby and I went to see DWTS at Harbour Yard. It was great fun. John Ratsinburger was there. Just for one dance. I don't think he and the endurance for 2. Apolo Anto Ono was faaaaaaaboulous. But no Joey Fatone and I was disappointed at that. Otherwise alot of fun. Apolo call me!!

end of the day

Hurray, I am home. I took care of this pt this morning. When I was giving her a shower I kept saying "boy this shower is up high. Your husband Jack must have put it in. I said this a few times. Her husbands name is Dave!! So who is the confused one here. I was thinking of another women's husband. We all went to the dr's. And then I came back to take my mother to her appointment. My back is killing me but I am going for a swim. The water is cold and there is no sun. But it just makes me feel soooo good. So glad today is over.

nursery calling

Oh boy!!! Am I tired. 9 little kids in nursery all crying for their mothers. This is my new calling in church. To be honest there were other sisters in there, but I am still tired. The kids a awfully cute, I have to say. The 1st and 2nd couselours came in to set me apart and one of them caught a little girs fingers right in the door. I heard screaming, turned around and saw 4 little fingers just sticking out. She was ok, but we had to bring her back to her parents.
This has been a good week. I spent time with my kids and grandkids at the beach. And also Ben, Molly and Max came swimming at my pool. With their mom, of course. We really had a good time and will go to the beach next week.
But boy did I pay a price for not going to the nursing home almost all week. My mother tried to make me feel so guilty but that just isn't going to work anymore. I do my best and that's it. Anyone might think she is getting dementia, but not my mother. She is just working everybody at the home.
I am going to a caregiver focus group at the end of July. I just need to talk to other people going through the same thing. I really need some support.
Tomorrow i have to take a pt to her Dr's appointment in the morning. And go and take my mother to hers. Marie Walker again. Oh goodnight nurse!!
I did go to FFld U. last night with my friend Louise for the Pops concert and it felt good to do something entertaining. Tues night is Dancing with The Stars and I am going with my daughter. And that will be great fun.